Suicidal Note
by Olivia Meyers
Deep down inside
lay feelings that can't rewind
emotions dug in deep, emotions undescribed
feelings that simply cannot be defined
The search for a friend
to try and help the pain end
always leads to another hurt
when they too desert
Hurtful words that leave me feeling worthless
they lead me to believe that I have no purpose
Thinking they conceive me to be wasted time
like I to them am useless
like existing is a crime
Sacrificing anything to try and keep them pleased
even when they continue to treat me like I'm diseased
I feel as nothing's ever good enough
even though a few tell me I'm just a 'diamond in the rough'
You can clearly see what you're doing
there is nothing but numbness left within
when everything's so confusing
it becomes difficult to distinguish the dead from the living
Left alone for days crying
but you don't care
and I'm done trying
pain is something I can no longer bear
What good is life when you're locked inside yourself
and can't find your way out
feeling as though you cry out to no one
drifting around an empty cell
I've screamed, I've pleaded
sat on a window ledge
no one seems to bother
would this be considered a form of murder?
I feel my soul tearing apart
from this despairing heart
but you don't care to listen
so now my blood must glisten
I'm convinced of only one answer
I can give up and fall
or continue to act as though it's all fine
but trying to feel something by banging your head against the wall
is no way to stumble on living
You cannot judge me
you don't live with the nightmares that haunt me
I sit in the dark without a light
but I'm afraid that my tears might turn into rage
I'm headed towards the bottom
with a permanent solution to a temporary problem
Tell me what you thought
as you helped me tie that knot
This is the demolition of my life
as you help me to sharpen the knife
Now it's done
now I'm gone
Yours truly,
The Corpse
lay feelings that can't rewind
emotions dug in deep, emotions undescribed
feelings that simply cannot be defined
The search for a friend
to try and help the pain end
always leads to another hurt
when they too desert
Hurtful words that leave me feeling worthless
they lead me to believe that I have no purpose
Thinking they conceive me to be wasted time
like I to them am useless
like existing is a crime
Sacrificing anything to try and keep them pleased
even when they continue to treat me like I'm diseased
I feel as nothing's ever good enough
even though a few tell me I'm just a 'diamond in the rough'
You can clearly see what you're doing
there is nothing but numbness left within
when everything's so confusing
it becomes difficult to distinguish the dead from the living
Left alone for days crying
but you don't care
and I'm done trying
pain is something I can no longer bear
What good is life when you're locked inside yourself
and can't find your way out
feeling as though you cry out to no one
drifting around an empty cell
I've screamed, I've pleaded
sat on a window ledge
no one seems to bother
would this be considered a form of murder?
I feel my soul tearing apart
from this despairing heart
but you don't care to listen
so now my blood must glisten
I'm convinced of only one answer
I can give up and fall
or continue to act as though it's all fine
but trying to feel something by banging your head against the wall
is no way to stumble on living
You cannot judge me
you don't live with the nightmares that haunt me
I sit in the dark without a light
but I'm afraid that my tears might turn into rage
I'm headed towards the bottom
with a permanent solution to a temporary problem
Tell me what you thought
as you helped me tie that knot
This is the demolition of my life
as you help me to sharpen the knife
Now it's done
now I'm gone
Yours truly,
The Corpse
***The End***
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